I grew up thinking that there would be some magical date in the future in which everything would be better. (Specifically, I thought about the Messiah coming.) I'm finding that even though I no longer believe in a messiah, I've retained this vague notion of "that time in the future when everything will be awesome for everyone except maybe those people who kick puppies." I can work toward making everything awesome for everyone, but it's never going to happen on the level that I grew up imagining. I need to channel that dissonance into giving back to the world more.