to change

Oct. 30th, 2007 11:50 pm
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So I'm realizing that I don't do well with change.  At all.  And while I think it's okay to indulge myself a little bit by avoiding some sorts of [unnecessary] change, I tend to overdo it.  A lot.

I need to push myself to be more adaptable, or at least practice adapting.  Evolution, baby. ┬íViva la . . . no.  I refuse to go there.
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I've realized something pretty amusing over the past few weeks: when I was young(er), I confused the concept of being "crunchy" (as in crunchy-granola) (I didn't know that term yet, and I'm not even sure it existed at the time) with the idea of having a bunch of kids. Like upwards of 5-6. I'm sure anyone reading this who's truly crunchy is laughing at me right now...

I think there are some common threads (like the sort of down-home sensibility) between the life lead by your average mother of 6,7,8, or more kids and the life of a crunchy person, but they're definitely not the same, and they're not even based in the same beliefs.

Perhaps next I'll venture into how I mistook the tomboy/slightly butch aesthetic (which I see as rooted largely in practicality) (which can lead people to avoid makeup and tight/short skirts) for modesty (I think "tzniut" conveys my thought a little better here.) That one's pretty funny too.

In other words, I am totally not a modest woman who wants to have 9 kids, but I can sorta kinda see why I used to think I was.
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Lately:
I want to take an auto repair/maintenance class at one of those continuing education programs. Never mind that I don't have a car, or even get a chance to be behind the wheel much...

My reasoning is that someday (hopefully, though not likely to be, soon) I'll be buying and then owning a (used) car, and I'd like to be able to check out the car's condition on my own, rather than summoning some Magic Car Guru who will examine the car and pronounce it fit or unfit. Currently I know zilch about how cars work. And of course it's good to be able to do your own maintenance, or some of it, or at the very least, be able to understand and converse intelligently with your mechanic.

{It's also partly that my mom, as relatively open-minded and independent as she is, doesn't do (as in "feel she understands or ever will") electrical or mechanical stuff, and used to tell me that "men just understand these things naturally," and that's not an MO I'd like to live with. (I mean, I think she tries, but sort of feels by default that it's just not in her blood and she'll never have a solid grasp of things.) }
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I've seen this meme wherein people should post (if it's true for them) the statement "I'm pro-choice, and I would have an abortion."

It's definitely something I would consider if I found myself in a situation where I was pregnant and it wasn't the right time or place or whatnot, but I don't know how likely I'd be to chose it. Chances of either event ever happening, however, are slim. But I think I'd base my decision on whether or not I wanted to have and raise a baby, rather than whether abortion is murder or whether fetuses are people. Which I suppose means that either I don't think they are, or that I'm okay with murder in select cases. Dunno. I doubt I'd stick out nine months of pregnancy followed by childbirth only to give a baby up for adoption.

On a slightly different note, it's quite paradoxical that there are so many children who don't have good homes and yet it's supposedly pretty difficult to adopt a baby--at least, it takes a long time and costs a good deal of money. I understand some of the reasons for that--many of the people who want to adopt want white infants, not non-white older kids, and many of the kids who could use better homes (or homes altogether) are non-white older kids. Still, it seems odd. Why do adoptions cost money anyway? I understand that there are things which need to be subsidized, like social workers and orphanages or whatnot, but why heap those costs on the people who are already doing the favor of giving some kids a good home?
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not much.

seriously. 

It has nothing to do with Margaret Atwood's book The Handmaid's Tale.  Haven't even read that, but I'm told there's something about a place called Gilead there.

It has nothing to do with bible study, although the plant name Balm of Gilead stems from the biblical passage "Is there no balm in Gilead,  is there no physician there? Why then is not the health of the daughter of my people recovered?"

I hate usernames (and screen names and email addresses) with numbers after them.  With a passion.  And since LJ has been around for awhile, most handles I considered had been taken.

I considered the username "myrrh" because it sounds vaguely like the beginning of my first name and seemed random and interesting and exotic, but it was taken.  Anxious to pick something, I moved on to other names for myrrh.   [livejournal.com profile] balmofgilead  had a certain ring to it somehow.  Right number of syllables, right syllables accented, whatever.  And there you have it. 

I guess it does represent me in some odd ways.  I was, for the most part, raised Orthodox Jewish, and attended a day school where we spent at least 2 periods each day studying the old testament in the original Hebrew. And although I couldn't place it on a map, we definitely mentioned Gilead (or Gilad as it would be pronounced in Hebrew) more than once.  So the biblical connection is perhaps apropos.   And I am quite interested in medicine and healing and herbs and the medicinal properties of herbs, and I like public health. So perhaps it's not quite so random. 

My main objective in this post is just to explain that I'm neither a bible freak nor a Margaret Atwood fan.  Not that there's anything wrong with that, but I don't want to be identified as something I'm not :). 

 

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